Kicking Cancers Butt 🎗

Feelings.. So it’s been nearly 3 months since I was Diagnosed with Blood Cancer (CML) and at first I took it very well, stayed positive and kept smiling and being “me” but recently it’s become harder, my side effects from the tablets and from my Leukaemia is getting worse and it’s harder to stay “me”! A lot of nights I can’t sleep due to pain and sickness, at the minute the sickness is worse than anything, I wake up to be sick, as I lay down I feel sick knowing it won’t be long till I’m actually sick.. I have had my moments where I cry to my partner that I just don’t want to be sick anymore, I wish it would All just go away or at least stop, but unfortunately I guess that’s what you get with Cancer.. you have to put on a brave face and not let it show, for it doesn’t only effect you but the people around you, who see you every day, luckily My partner often sees through the “brave face” and knows when something is bothering me or if I’m in pain and helps me through! I try not to c...

So here is my second entry since being diagnosed with blood cancer CML chronic myeloid Leukaemia on the 13th April In my last entry I said I would write about the day I found out , but unfortunately where my head is at  and how I emotionally feel I am not ready to have that on the internet , Personally it’s hard to write So I am doing an entry on a normal day, the good and bad in a couple days. As no day is “normal” anymore, without pain or discomfort, so thank you for reading  On this is a hard journey. SATURDAYS 5th MAY 2018 So it’s sayurday and it’s my first proper Saturday off work since I had to reduce my hours unfortunately I had to do this because it was causing to much pain from my Cancer and my treatment! It was a lovely day, sun was shining and I was feeling happy.. feeling Myself (which doesn’t happen often) I went for a mini shopping trip with my partners mum, then me and my partner had a relaxing time in the garden (well I did, he did the garden jobs haha...

On Friday the 30th of March I woke up with pain in my leg, like I had pulled a muscle or something, as the days went on the pain was still there so I dosed up on painkillers and applied ibuprofen gel every day to ease what I thought was a pulled muscle. Come Sunday the 8th of April I went to bed and I couldn’t get my leg in a comfortable position without it aching, the pain was unreal I was crying and constantly moving around to get settled, this lasted for about an hour when my partner decided he wanted to take me to the hospital this was at 11:45pm. I hate hospitals so I told him to just call 111 and see what they say so I’m not wasting anyone’s time. They made an appointment for about 2 hour later and told us to call back if symptoms get any worse or if anything changes, 10 minutes later I lay down trying to settle till my appointment when I just projectile vomited all over, my partner took me to the bathroom where I was sick again, this time it had blood in, in a panic my par...